‘To Save a Few’

Educating the Young: The Struggle Is Real!

A sample from Book 4

  To Save a Few
 
students we teach
―just want to guide them
set them assail
so they’ll flourish
never fail
but like a wooded trail
their path is blocked
their doors are closed
their heads are hard as rock
giving up...too lame
staying...sane
 
they’re from a flock of
I don’t give a damns
coming to a world of
I don’t understands
to help them is a curse
to ignore them...worst
 
you think you get in—
only an hour
they’re in your den
 
then they’re set loose
they’re heads’ in a noose 
 
if we could see
above their anger
wipe away all the danger 
 
if only to save a few
to wake up again
to the morning dew
 
 
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‘The Passion’

Where Is the Passion For Christ?

A sample from Book 2

  The Passion
 
we live in a closed fear
our laugh a bit queer
He† died on the cross—
so we may not be lost
 
we build a big house
we’re not treated like a mouse
He† was beaten by a strap—
releasing us from our trap
 
we worship the almighty green
it matters how we are seen
His† skin fell from his body—
while they stood laughing
 
we spend wanting the best
who cares about the rest
His† mother watched her son—
evildoers had their fun
 
we ridicule the less fortunate—
breed cruelty and hate
His† skin soaked in blood—
hitting the ground...raging flood
 
we spit the hungry in the face
carrying around a can of mace
He† wore a crown of thorns—
so we can be reborn
 
how much more can we take
how much more can we fake
 
He† forgave us for our sin—
how many prayers can we lend
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‘Never Forget’

What Do You Stand For?

A sample from Book 1

 Never Forget
 
each day you get up—
never forget
who filled your cup
 
each day you begin work—
never forget
on your back
there's a shirt
 
each day
you create something new—
never forget
who gave you the clue
 
each day
you joyfully sing—
never forget
the past-learning thing
 
each day
you sit to draw—
never forget
you once was young and raw
 
each day
you start to paint—
never forget
those who can't
 
each day
you work your farm—
never forget
you have two arms
 
each day
you design a new dress—
never forget
those poor...in distress
 
each day
you write on your book—
never forget
the years of learning it took
 
each day
you write an article—
never forget
those who can't live humble
 
each day
you sit to learn—
never forget
those who lack concern
 
each day
you attend a school—
never forget
those controlled
by a dictator's rule
 
each day
you drive your car—
never forget
those who have to walk far
 
each day
you take a bath—
never forget
water...some do lack
 
each day
you sit to eat—
never forget
those who can't afford meat
 
each day
those you judge—
never forget
they don't ask for much
 
each day
you wedge your war—
never forget
you're watched by the Lord†
 
each day
for greed
you make policy—
never forget
where comes God's† glory
 
each day
you choose not to pray—
never forget
in the end
it's God's† say
 
each day
God†—
you don't thank—
never forget
how your day soon sinks
 
each day
you have a choice
it's your individual voice
that's heard
above the noise
 
whatever you say
no matter the day
for your wrongs
you'll eventually pay
 
never forget
when problems you can't solve
when accidents you're involved
when anger doesn't dissolve
 
never forget
when you're ridiculed
by your boss
your keys
you carelessly lost
government rendered fines'
heavy cost
 
never forget
when love leaves your house
when your income goes south
when criticism
comes from every mouth
 
it's your own choice
ignore the Lord†
your criticizing voice
not believing in His† truth
—playing your own card
your reasons for shedding blood
—your raging fighting flood
using His† name
for nothing but gain
 
never forget
God†...your Allah
is one and the same
you are His† children
equal in His Holy† vision
 
to not thank Him†
to ignore His† ten commandments
to think
you're better than Him†
to not believe in Him†
to condemn His Son†
—all that's within Him†
 
these accidents
these painful moments
that's happening to you
is just a clue
to what He† can do
 
you think I'm wrong
you're right
—your non-believing song
won't lead you
to any throne
here's a test for you
take a break from your cause
from your man-made laws
 
a month that's all—
each day
when you first awake
thank Him† right away
 
don't lie
don't steal
don't cheat

be nice
stand up for what's right

say thank you
say please

to each person you meet
 
pay attention
to those with limitations
those missing a limb
those blind
those left cripple
those without money
 
open a door
try to help
do more
 
for one solid month
then you'll see
how things change
how you start to feel
way down deep
there's nothing to believe
all good—
comes from He†
 
you just have to stop
slow down your clock
you don't need miracles
to understand
His† principles
 
love
peace
forgiveness
helping
 
is all He† wants
from you
to be true
to be honest—
His† simple menu
 
if these you do
He'll† be true
to you
His† love will shine
you'll see His Divine†
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‘Basic Need’

You Have the Need: So Fucking Roar!

A sample from Book 1.

 Basic Need
 
we hide our self
behind
walls we built
 
not being good enough
truly felt
being afraid
fear tightens our belt
 
past haunts‒
needing to prove oneself
strengthens
our woven quilt
submersed
in unforgiving guilt
 
worries
attack our health
negative thoughts
keeping away life's wealth
 
once you've knelt
stop hiding
beneath the buried shelf
 
the past
takes care of itself
no longer
feeling like an elf
 
pain
will suddenly melt
you'll be happy
with yourself
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‘Attrition’

Ways Codependents React to Narcissists After a Breakup

A sample from Book 9

 Attrition
 
a stable life in good–
doing what you should
holding on tight–
what's under the hood
 
seasons change
all the same
knowing they would–
gripping firmly to strength
keeping sight
in positive's look
assuring self
you've done it right–
gave the love you could
 
then all stop–
a tied-up knot
the sudden chop
from what is
to the cold, calculated not
 
words thrown
you misunderstood
 
you...searching
for answers in known
looking back–
on grounds stood
phrases said–
bouncing in head
surely something mistook–
signs overlooked
 
you know what you felt
all the right moves dealt
–the magic read in clouds
stories in books
readings in prayer books
right there...underfoot
all the best
in adulthood
words clearly understood
 
but there...lacking input
missed lessons in hymn books
–deceptions little nook
misguided direction
landing
in betrayal's neighborhood
 
all the pieces
so well together...put
a bit in the odd
the back-there look
 
a moved life
in sudden maidenhood
no written guidebook
teachings a foot–
these misguided ways
in falsehood
 
stripping moments of good–
losing self
in fancy-driven gook
scenes of hollywood
masterminds mastering weakness–
perils of womanhood–
–sly little crooks
robbing more livelihood–
what was already shook
 
tighter goes the knots
yet another sudden stop–
that letting-down drop
forcing
the non-welcomed re-surfacing
of anger's top
that place–
you thought chopped
 
lessons learned in crop–
that sudden stop
strengthens the lot
of hurt's already
worn-out blot
 
out goes buddhahood–
peaceful mind
turns to soot
promises of a finally found
true
honesty in real's manhood
lost once again
in a dreamer
stuck in boyhood
 
all this defend
breaks self down–
losing the will it took
to again's stuck in pussyfoot
–for nothing more
than mere, stagnated driftwood–
too hard for firewood
too nimble-footed
too backwoods
to be anyone's
true knighthood
 
so you just dawn an old frock
cover all the clocks
mourn what's not
–lessons thrown to floors
then mopped
live a bit in shell-shock
 
then, again fight
return good
to its original spot
–add the lost
to false-love's overflowing
melting pot
–take a minute...sob
tie tighter the knot
listen to some hip-hop
suck on some lollipops
–try to forget
once more...robbed
trying to convince self
heartbreak
not your mascot
 
but hope steps on in
forcing self
back into believe–
somewhere, out there
a heart's coming
your world to rock
without ever again
the sudden stop
from what is
to what's not
love in flop
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Where Narcissists Get Their ‘Feel-Good’ Empowerment From?

(March 17, 2019)―Reading. That’s what I’ve been doing. One author who caught my attention over a year ago through her videos and website is Shahida Arabi who has become an expert on the subject of narcissists and their many manipulative, abusive ways. I will write a lot more about her findings, including my personal experiences, when my website is up and running. For now, there are two important points that Arabi makes in her article titled ‘5 Powerful Ways Abusive Narcissists Manipulate You’ from her book titled Power.

The 5 powerful ways are of course:

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Breaking Your Codependency….

…and Moving On To ‘Normal’

A sample from Book 12

That is the question that I had to end this book with. Going through the trials in life are hard. This year I had to face my mother’s death and the destruction of my three-year relationship, as well fight more health issues while being 1600 miles from all my family.

Codependency had still a hard grip on me, but the anxiety that I had fought through was just about gone. I would have to go through a forced intervention to figure out what the true medicine for codependency and all those negative thoughts were.

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Recognizing Codependency in Yourself!

A sample from Book 9

Oh! Are you in for a treat! I began talking about codependency in Book 6. I didn’t see the horror in it until 2015…that need to make others happy began to affect me in the worse way. The following is part of the Introduction to Book 9 in My 12-Book series.

To heal…to completely heal from abuse, you have to deal with the codependent in you. It won’t be easy. From this book all the way to Book 12, I fought it. You can do it, too. Trust in the journey and get my books…I do have a different answer than most do.

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Bringing Yourself from Hurt to Healing!

A sample from Book 8

It’s a process. Sometimes a long one depending if abuse was in the mix. The follow is part of the Introduction to my 8th book in My 12-Book Series. It’s just the beginning of the acceptance stage. Depression still follows. Anger still follows you. You have a journey, but you can do it.

My journey took a twist by adding another relationship to the mix. This book is only the beginning to that. Oh! You just gotta love those who just think they don’t do any wrong. Life’s quite a ride!

“…This book is an exploration of self: Overcoming the anger, the hurt, seeing the damage and healing, understanding how God brings us to something in order to help us and not hinder us, to understand that God’s timing is not our own…and it doesn’t matter how we want to rush it, He’ll stop us in our tracks, slow us down in order for time to heal…[time to] work its magic.

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This Is What Depression from Betrayal Looks Like

A sample from Book 7

All different shades! No one handles betrayal the same…or do we? We rage. We scream. We yell and cry. What happens after that? Depression. How you handle it is up to you. Many times…we don’t have a choice how that plays out. The following is from the Introduction of my 7th Book in My 12-Book Series.

“There are things you have to do to take care of yourself during this stage. You have to get out of it. I know showing you how I got through the initial shock of it, will help you make through alive!

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